Sugar

I just found two more tumors on her leg. The same leg where a tumor was removed last spring. I feel guilty and horrible for not finding them earlier. I knew when she started losing weight again that something was wrong. I kept meaning to check. I can't stop crying. My poor kitty.

Relief

Last night was pretty great, wasn't it? There are so many beautiful, tear-inducing things on the internet today about the election, I don't know that I can add much. I'm thrilled, I'm relieved, I can finally lift my 8 year ban on television news (not that I have the ability to watch TV news at the moment, so the ban has been essentially symbolic for over a year anyway, but still). I'm proud to be an American. And it doesn't feel embarrassing to say that, for the first time in a long time. As I told Zach yesterday, we can finally tell Europe with their snooty (and completely accurate but horrifically hypocritical) accusations of racism to shut up. I mean, can you imagine France, Great Britain, or Germany electing a racial minority as president? Heh. Non, no, nein. And, on a completely personal note, I think it is awfully cool that the next president of the United States is someone who once graded a paper of mine. I mean, honestly. No degrees of separation!

I'm also proud to be my mother's daughter today. Yesterday Zach sent me a frantic text from the beach where he'd found an abandoned, cold, shivering kitten. He brought it home, and the other abandoned cat that's basically taken up residence at his house freaked out. Being a 12 hour drive away I couldn't do much other than volunteer my mom to save the day, and she did. Zach brought the cat to my mom's gallery, she left work and installed it in the greenhouse at home, and there's one more kitten who won't be starving in the wilderness. I'm not sure this is a permanent solution, but it will work for now. My stepdad is allergic to cats and this kitten seems to want to be an inside cat. So if anyone lives in Oregon and wants a really sweet kitten, let me know!

Happy Election Day!

I woke up to the first snow of winter this morning, with an anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach. I plan to hide under the covers until the results are announced.