I'm really not sure how it's possible.

But somehow I passed the bar. It's not like I want to be a lawyer or anything, but . . . I really don't like failing. And as much as I was totally prepared to re-take it in July, I'm soooo glad I don't have to.

Moving On

The bar is over. I won't know for sure that I failed until sometime in April. I finished about an hour early yesterday (I don't spend much time dithering in an exam - if I don't know the answer right away, staring at it won't magically make me remember the proper rule) and walked out of that convention center positively giddy. I'm free! I can do whatever I want without feeling guilty because I'm not studying! It feels like it's been ages since that has been true. Probably because it has. Of course, now I get to feel guilty about not doing more to find an income stream . . . but that's not quite as bad.

Logging Out

I'm about to head down the mountain until this blasted bar exam is over. I'll spend tonight holed up in my grandparents' basement, watching the Oscars and "studying." Tomorrow afternoon I'll begin two and a half days of hell as I try to remember what the hell a "security" is and how it can be "perfected"; the specific intent required for arson; what makes a marriage void vs. voidable; the difference between a vested interest subject to total divestment, and a contingent remainder; and the defenses to contract formation.

The good news is that on Wednesday at 5:00 p.m. M.S.T. or thereabouts this will all be over . . . for now.

One example of why I love my mother

We were chatting last night, and when she asked what I was doing, I was honest and told her "Well, I'm watching Law & Order. It's sort of like a refresher course in [inaccurate] criminal procedure. I should be studying, but at this point? How much can I really learn? I'm so going to fail." Her response: "[Laughter] Well, it shows a certain panache to pass one of the hardest bars in the country and then fail in Idaho."

Word. This is where I get my skill at spin. I'm lazy, but I'm lazy with panache.

Maybe this is a sign I really should give up on that whole law thing after all

I am now on my THIRD iPod of BarBri lectures (the second one they sent me, to replace a few incorrect lectures on the first iPod, was completely wrong and had lectures for like Louisiana or something) and I just discovered that the most recent iPod, the one that allegedly corrects all the errors of iPods past, doesn't contain a CivPro lecture. Why are they fucking with me? WHY!?!?!